When I started this blog I was in China and I stopped writing about my trips around China for a certain reason. The reason was that on the first trip I got my passport submerged during a huge rain shower on The Great Wall. Visiting The Great Wall was a big challenge and then I had many other challenges travelling around China. At many points, I was enjoying my time there but once it came to writing I was considering to write once everything is fixed. I was worried about not being able to return to my home country or the one that I am living in. I was thinking what happens if I write and I end up getting stuck somewhere on the planet and not being able to move anywhere else. There had been a fear of the unknown future which was making me incapable of writing which was making me afraid of writing what is going on.
I thought that it would be better if I don't write about bad things and don't think about them as they reflect and they may reinforce the bad things to happen. Many years ago, I read about the law of attraction in a book named "Secret" which is pretty famous I guess. It was saying that don't think about bad things or the bad things can get worse. As I am not the kind who advertises something like "The Secret" let me oppose that idea and come over it. I can remember a book that I saw once in the city's big bookshop named "Don't worry, It gets worse". I haven't read the book but I have lived something close to the title. Honestly, I am happy with my life to a great extent right now, with whatever I have and whatever I lack but that is the big picture. I guess that makes sense for whoever you can see as a successful person (how deliberately I just named myself successful).
You always see the big picture about anyone else without knowing the overwhelming disturbing details and guess what? Life tricks you to hinder your disturbing details when you are looking back.
Life is not about not thinking about or not sharing the bad things that can happen along the way, the thing that I want to say is that we must live them. That's a big part of life and without experiencing tough parts, one cannot enjoy and be grateful for what they have. Right now, from the night that I found out about my submerged passport in Beijing (Which Reza can remember well if he reads this) up to now that I am going on my second ice climbing trip tomorrow, that I am going to defend my thesis soon and I am going to start my work next week I have missed much to write about. So live life to the whole, which means enjoy the journey without thinking about minor distractions and problems that arise for everyone all the time, no matter if you think about them or not. On the other hand, see the big picture and enjoy how far have you came and how are you thriving.
I am happy today but it does not mean that I have no difficulty but that I am going to overcome them and I feel comfortable thinking about them and working to solve them. Now, I must run to pack up for tomorrow early morning ice climbing trip.
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